Topic Tuesday: Failure and Mistakes

Failure, mistakes, trial and error. All ways of expressing the same thing, opportunities to learn, but heard to understand them as such in the moment.
I’m a planner, I love to plan, to come up with game plans and schedules. But rarely, RARELY, do we implement them for very long. There’s pleasure and accomplishment in the making of lists, in figuring out a good looking schedule but following comes with little of the same rewards. Once one thing slips, the whole plan feels useless.
We came up with the plan for getting content on to the site, for getting me to learn and to climb out of a lull but as I tried to research I realised that it wasn’t going to work. My brain just doesn’t take in information, reading and comprehension are just beyond me at this point. I wanted to prepare myself for writing, I wanted to have a good foundation but right now I just need to write, I need to get stories out of me and to get the words down. A good editor can help me with the things I don’t understand. So Topic Tuesdays are going to be a little different and more relaxed than I envisioned, but hopefully more fun to both write and read.
I focus on the thing that I’m not doing right now, example, I’m writing this and thinking about cross stitch. Another, last night I was desperate to design more cross stitch but all I could think about was my fantasy world. Another, I wanted to do exercise this morning so I focused on thinking about climbing a mountain, while John looked it up and I sat on the couch not doing anything. Urg!
Each cycle that I go through, each time I fail, I’m learning, and that’s what I’m choosing to focus on. Each time I get a little closer to who I want to be.
I have the time. Many people would kill for the time and the space that I have and I’m pissing it away worrying and stopping myself, but no more! (Well probably still some bumps in the road but I’m gonna try!!)
If you’ve failed, try again, change what doesn’t work and keep trying. Failure isn’t the end, it isn’t, it’s just the beginning!

Topic Tuesday: Beginning

What better place to start than the beginning. For this, the first Topic Tuesday, we will be discussing a word; a nice easy word to ease me into this researching and learning malarky. And an easy word it is!

Beginning – The point in time and space at which something begins.

The origin is (like a lot of our words) Germanic, and is very similar to the German and Dutch word-beginnen. I have to admit I do like the sound of most German words, I keep trying to learn but I struggle with the speaking portion. Anyhoo, that’s beside the point of this post.

Beginning can be a noun, a verb or an adjective.

Noun: Start at the beginning.
Verb: We are beginning our journey.
Adjective: At the beginning leg of the journey.

Synonyms
Start
Creation
Inception
Onset
Opening
Dawn

The beginning of something is often the hardest part but easily forgotten once you’re further down the path. The beginning of a novel or story is key into setting up the atmosphere and getting the reader hooked into the story. The beginning of a project is an exciting time, it can be addictive to keep starting things instead of sticking through the hard times and finishing something.

I know that for many reading this that all of the above is something that they learnt many a year ago, but for some reason this kind of stuff refuses to stick in my mind. I’m hoping that through researching and putting what I find into my own words I can make my writing better. There’s always something to learn.

If you have any requests for Topic Tuesdays, leave a comment and I’ll see what I can do. I think for next Tuesday I’m going to begin to look at tenses, perhaps past as the first one.

Have a wonderful day and we’ll see you tomorrow for Wildlife Wednesday!

Change

Change comes slowly, but it does come, if you put in the hard work.
For many, many years I have struggled with my relationship with food. The fact that there’s a relationship at all is a problem, I wish we were just acquaintances. I have always been overweight, I’ve never been healthy. However because I wasn’t ever inconvenienced by being bigger, I could walk around and do various hobbies, I was never motivated to change. But after I turned thirty that changed, I have sore knees, sore back and I grew tired of my decreasing mobility. So finally at the beginning of 2018 John and I embarked on a quest to GET HEALTHY. Since then I have lost four stone (56 pounds) with five stone (70 pounds) more to go. It has not been easy, thirty plus years of bad habits are hard to break.
I’ve been taking pictures of myself to track progress and it seems that was the right move. As it turns out, your body adapts and is very quick to forget. I still feel massive at times, despite how my clothes hang off me. Seeing a recent picture compared to one earlier showed me the progress I’ve made and it reaffirmed my resolve (which had been wavering).
A routine is essential, for me, and that is the same way for writing. For the last week I’ve had a place to write, a time to do it and though I have been struggling with putting words on paper, it has been a great help to have the routine become a pleasant part of my day. My bad writing habits are: doubting my ideas, not carrying on past a few sentences before giving up, or allowing myself to just experiment. But it’s still early, I still slip with food, all habits take a long time to break and form.
If you are struggling with something, if you’ve slipped, don’t let it stop you. One bad day is only one, get back on the horse and record your progress. I promise that it’s worth it.

Thank you so much for reading this little peek into my life. There will be more slices, from both me and John, in the future. So if you enjoyed it (I hope you did) stick with us!